Why does it matter?

I just want to know why my weight is such a big issue for him? I mean it is not like I was 100 lbs when we met. I was 162 when I got pregnant with Aaron, which was within 4-6 weeks of us getting together. I have had 3 kids and weigh around 167-170 depending on the day. He tells me outright that I am overweight and borderline obese. The bible says that the tongue is mightier than the sword, well, I never realized it until now. He really hurts my feelings and makes em feel bad.
I am 5'2" tall and yes, I know I have put on a little weight, but give me a break already. I can tell you exactly what the problem is....if it is not fun I don't want to do it! I need motivational support, not a mental bashing. I am tired of feeling this way and am on the verge of cracking.
The really sad part is that I love him enough to keep taking the bashing.
I haven't really discussed this issue with too many people, but I need to vent before I do explode. I don't want to break up my family. Things are hard enough in life for kids these days without adding a broken home to the list.
I just don't know how much more I can really take. It seems like each day it just breaks me down a little more. (on the days that we "discuss" the issue)
I am trying really hard to stay positive and not let my boys see the hurt.

I WON!!

Last night we went to the Fall Festival that the kids school. The kids always have a good time. This year however, we won one of the raffle baskets! I could not believe it, I was so excited. In the basket was 33 various movies, (not just movies from the 1.00 bins at Wal Mart, Target or the Dollar Store) 50 bags of popcorn, 25 different boxes of movie theater candy, 2 movie tickets, some fall decorations, a box of hot chocolate, 3 boxes of cracker jacks and other things, too many lists.

Vacation

As of last Thursday at 1:00 PM I have been on vacation. We left around 8:00 PM and headed north toward Ohio. We arrived safely around 10:30 AM Friday morning. It was a very long drive. Actually, I drove for a short time on this trip, which has never happened in the past. :) He usually does all the driving, but he could barely keep his eyes open, so I drove for a while.

We spent most of Friday sleeping. :( Saturday, we went to the Enon Apple Butter Festival. I enjoy the food at this festival, they have a booth that serves the best pork chop sandwich around. We get one every year :) I called my best friend and let her know I was in town, but told her I did not want her to feel obligated to come and visit. She comes from Indiana every year to see me, but with the kids and sports and boys scouts, girl scouts and all the other activities, I know she is busy. She called me later that night and said they would see me in a few hours....how cool is that :)

Saturday we all went to the Waynesville Sauerkraut Festival. Yummy... pork, kraut and mashed potatoes. It was alot of fun! Afterwards we went on a hayride with the kids, we do this every year when she comes. It is always so much fun. I am glad she was able to enjoy the festival with me this year, it really is my favorite one . :)

Today was a day of recovery. Everyone was so pooped from all the walking we did all weekend. Stephanie, Bill and Trent went home and my family just kind of hung out around the house.
Can't wait to see what the rest of the week will bring :)

Regions Bank

Well, today I took the teller test for Regions Bank. I hope I passed the test. Now it is just wait and see what happens next. At least most of the questions were some how related to banking. I am a little nervous though, I can't do math that fast and they only give you like 40 seconds to answer each question in the math section. They had one section that was fairly easy at the beginning. It was kind of like matching. Basically you just had to make sure the numbers matched exactly and determine how many pairs did not. They started with 17 seconds to answer, then after a few questions you had 15 seconds, a few more and you had 13 seconds. This went on until you had to answer the questions in 5 seconds or less. I think I did OK, but I guess all I can do is wait for the results.

Life

I haven't written any thing in a while, so I figured today was a good day to update everyone :)
Things have been a little crazy, between working, helping with homework, taking care of sick children and maintaining a somewhat normal household, I am just worn out! WHEW! I have picked up extra hours a work, so shuffling the vehicle around has been a little nuts too. Anyway, things have calmed down a little. I finished cleaning my house, Scott is gone for the day and the boys are off playing.
I am taking my teller test for Regions Bank on Monday. I am a little nervous because like the rest of them, it is pass or fail. I hate those profiling tests, but it is part of the process.
We are still trying to pull off our annual trip to Ohio, but I don't know if that is going to happen.
I will let everyone know if we manage to pull off the trip.
For now I will leave you with this thought for the day........

Live your life like today is your last day on Earth, for no one really knows if they will be around to see tomorrow.

Neighbors

Does anyone besides me really dislike their neighbors? They are REALLY just ignorant people. OK for starters, anyone who knows me knows that I was not thrilled with the idea of selling them our truck. Not only have they totally destroyed it, but they are behind on making the payments. I am over it! I think we should just repo the truck, take it to the junkyard and cut our losses. Scott has regrets from helping them also.
He, the neighbor, has not worked in a few months. His wife is lazy and does nothing, while their daughter, constantly comes over and asks "Can I eat over?" I feel bad saying no, because I know she must not be eating at home, but she is not my daughter and I have three children of my own to feed. OK, so maybe I should not be venting, but I am so tired of helping those who don't want to help themselves! I hope I am not sounding like an uncaring bitch, but lets face it.....
They have 3 children, no jobs, they go to the church every week for food, they have money for gas to drive who knows where, but can't pay me for the truck, the electric and water are constantly being shut off, yet they have cellphones (yes, that is a necessity!) Her 16 year old brother lives with them, yet her mom, who lives right around the corner, collects child support on him. I am over the crap and if that make me a bitch, then I claim the title!

Regions Bank

Today, Regions Banks had an open house at their new location in New Port Richey. I actually found out about it on one of my job searches. They were doing on the spot interviews, so I decided to check it out. The event ran from 10am to 1pm. I was there by 10:10 and did not get interviewed until 11:15. There were just so many people there, it was like one big block party. Anyway, I have to call and set up the appointment to take the teller assessment test. I already knew this, but figured what the heck, why not go and at least talk to someone face to face. I will let everyone know how things progress. I only know at this point that it is a pass /fail test, just like the rest of them. I hate those profiling tests because they don't get to know who you are, as a person, based on the results.